Journey to the Moon

Things have been crazy since the birth of our Miss Hannah-Joie. Crazy good and crazy bad. She is delicious! She is probably the most beautiful baby I have ever seen, but the crying, oh the crying. From the day she was born, I noticed that her tongue was a bit different and her latch was short and a bit painful. We tried to work through that. Finally, at about 3 weeks we saw a lactation consultant that explained that Hannah had a class 4 Tongue tie and a Posterior tongue tie. ( www.kiddsteeth.com) Someone believed me at last! And I only felt about half crazy. The real journey started after the diagnosis. And quite frankly, it's kinda sucky. At 7 weeks and 2 days, we made the agonizing decision to laser my sweet baby girl's lip and tongue. I thought that was the hard part. I was wrong. The stretches, oh , those nasty stretches. It consists of lifting her upper lip until it touches her nostrils for 3 seconds , 3 times. Next, since her mouth is wide open from screaming, you have to push and pull her tongue up , 10 times. This happens 4 times a day. 4 TIMES A DAY! And she cries, and my heart breaks, and then I cry with her. All of this in the hopes that the ties do not "reattach". Reattach.....did you ever think that word would be so scary? I didn't either. But now the word sends shakes of fear to the very core of my soul. To my very heart. And I cry. And I cry . And I cry. And I fret.....did I make the right decision? Should we have let her deal with the painful gas and colic? Should I have waited until my supply dried up? All the while, my heart is screaming YOU HAVE TO TRUST GOD. I think I do. But maybe, if I'm honest, I'm afraid of that too. Afraid that He forgot about me. Afraid that my sweet baby is being made to suffer because I made a bad decision. Afraid that if I don't do everything right, that she will "reattach."So I have to trust God. He loved her enough to save her once. Won't He do it again? He loved her enough to send His ONLY son....He delivered her soul, won't He deliver her from this too? My head is not a fun and pleasant place to be these days. I am emotionally and physically pushed to the brink every single day. I live in fear and anxiety, every single day. I can't control it. I pray. I speak blessing. But in the dark corners of my broken heart, I am still a scared little girl. And I need God. I need Him to show up. I need the burning bush. I need the whisper in my soul that reminds me that I am loved and that Hannah belongs much more to Him than me. I share this journey with you all so that you will pray for my sweet baby. That she will be whole. That she will not reattach. That her pain, her continuous pain would be eased. That people would see the healing power of God through her. That she would nurse well . Blessings to you all. May the love of Christ keep you all!

Christmas

A couple of days ago, I received a World Vision catalog in the mail. It wound up in the trash. Christmas is so tight and with all the kids wanting such expensive things, I honestly didn't think much of sending money somewhere else. But God sees things differently. In fact, the one thing that keeps popping back up in my mind is the World Vision catalog. This is when I am especially thankful for grace and the internet. God knew that catalog would end up in the trash ......and He was gracious enough to supply the website! 

So on I went. There are tons of adorable faces and smiles that just make your heart melt into a thousand tiny pieces. And then He whispers "This is what I AM about". Yes , yes it is. Then I started to read. (Please note that reading can become very dangerous as it leads to knowledge, and then the Father gives you some understanding. And if you are super blessed, He then supplies the wisdom to get your feet moving.)

Did you know that more than six million children under five die each year? Basically from preventable illnesses? Unfortunately, the clinics lack the basic medicines they need or they might be inaccessible. 

How about when children lack basic clothing supplies to stay warm, on come preventable things like frostbite or pneumonia ?

Try this one on for size. That a child dies every TEN seconds from hunger and related causes!

That roughly 2,000 children aged 5 and under die each day from lack of clean water?

Is your heart there yet? It is a TRAGEDY that all of this goes on in the world around us and we know little to nothing about it. And I hear you. I totally hear you on the other side of this computer screen. 

There is so much tragedy and I am one person. What could I possibly do?

People, it all starts at home. Teach your kids. From your heart. From the heart of the One who made us all in His glorious image. Show them . Read them statistics. Look up your church missionaries.  Read the Bible. Show them pictures of groups of 2,000 people and let them glance at the amount of children dying daily from lack of clean water. Pray for them as you drink water. 

Show them AIDS statistics in Africa. Then tell them about the marvels of Jesus and modern medicine and tell them that $60 can save a life. 

$60......thats right folks. Most of the things I told you about can be combated by donations of $60 or less. 

And in case you are screaming at me now " $60 , are you CRAZY?" , let me break some real life situations down. I know when I take my sweet family out to dinner it costs roughly $60 by the time I pay a tip. I know that I travel to Chick-Fil-A four times a month after co-op at about $20 a week , so that evens out to $80. That is just two examples. How many of us drink coffee from a shop daily? How about those cool highlights in your hair? Or your pedicure? Just think, giving something up for a month might save a life or five of them. 

So here is my challenge for you.....can you commit to something? I know there is a gift to give that is $10.

Maybe it is time for us to start looking at people like Jesus does. With compassion. With love. Full of grace and mercy. Maybe it is time to show our kids that sometimes real love is hard. Sometimes real love sacrifices joyously. That my friends, is where we find the love of Christ. In joyfully giving out of the abundance of that which He has so graciously supplied to us. I love you all. May the God of peace rule your hearts in Christ Jesus. May you be abundantly blessed by Him today. 

www.worldvision.com

Believing

Lessons from the Lord always hit me at awkward times. Probably because my mind works on a strange frequency and He know when something goes "DING! Fries are done!" .
Sunday nights are quiet nights for my family, well as quiet as they get. My oldest likes to watch Once Upon a Time. and we usually sit as a family and enjoy it together. Tonight, Tinkerbell was part of the show. My son thought this was the most fabulous thing ever! As Tinkerbell is flying around with her beautiful wings and her sparkling pixie dust, she says something....something most interesting. She says " Believe in me."
Believe in me. Believe in me. Those words resonated on a heart level that is almost impossible to describe.
Isn't that exactly what the Lord wants from us? For us to believe IN Him. I was actually so moved by this thought in my heart , that I had to repent . My first thought really was " wow, I have been totally believing you, without believing IN you" I have gotten lazy with the instruction of my children. Yet, He has promised that if I am faithful and diligent in the instruction of my children IN His ways, that they will belong to Him. I have become slothful in my home. Often not worried about the laundry or the dinner that needs to be cooked, I am just glad that I made it through the day. Some days, that is ok. There is grace for that. But HE HAS SO MUCH MORE. He has given me self-discipline IN Him by HIS Spirit. And now we are back on track . I must tell you, God sent me a wonderful friend that shared a glorious chore chart with me and helped me. I have become tired of doing good, often wanting a break, or to relax, or just wanting to finish so I can be done. But He has promised me rest IN Him.
I have example after example after example of the music resonating in my heart with His goodness tonight . I am thankful for His gentleness, for His goodness, for His mercy. Oh, His underserved mercy. Have mercy on me Lord, a sinner!
IN Him we have rest, we have joy, we have peace. His presence is never ending. He does not fade. He does not give up. He loves us with a love that is unfailing. This is so hard to grasp, when we as people, have such a jilted view point . Thanks be to God that His ways are higher than ours!
It is so easy to believe the Lord and not be believing IN Him, ON Him. Take a look into your soul tonight and give thanks to Him for He is good. Then look around and do an inventory. What do you need to give back to God? What do you need to be believing IN Him for? Surely , salvation. But what else? What is nagging at you right now?